Action=Reaction

I don’t often like to post very personal issues on the blog, but at times like these when I feel quite overwhelmed with my present situation; it is good to have some writing space. Only one sentence in and already spell check is underlining everything! Sigh. This is not going to be one of those soppy posts, no. In fact, life in general is going quite well at the moment. Maybe a bit like a first time driver in a manual car, but well nonetheless…

So I don’t completely understand where my current preoccupation with starting up drama is coming from. I have this undeniable itch to ruffle some feathers, and not just because I’m bored. I want a REACTION. I am feeling quite numb inside from trying to stifle these feelings while trying to inspire those feelings. No specifics needed, but let’s assume there are significant other(s) involved. These significant others don’t know it yet but I’ve been plotting for days (and nights), and have finally come to the conclusion that….. wait for it: That I have no idea what to do with myself. I feel lost.